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Gaslight

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Nightmares locked away
Albeit never permanently
Flooding my conscience
I want to break down
Truly cry but can’t
Seem to get over the hurdle
That sensitivity is not weakness
As no one will be allowed to see
The stoic falling apart.

Yearn to heal
Desire to feel
Provide an explanation for
My less than “normal” reactions
Dare not get too close
Either to bolt
Or explode in anger
For I pray this doesn’t happen to you
For only a fool keeps rewinding
And reliving the demented insane tape loop.

Would they even remember you?
Would they even acknowledge your presence?
Your right to believe?
Or would they continually gaslight you?
Making it perfectly clear
They are purveyors of pristine illusion
You, the victim of fractured reality.

It’s not fair (but life never is)
That one has to suffer
While they go on whistling an arrogant tune
But the days of a manufactured paradise are over
I’m not immune to facing my sins
Not a question of winning or losing
But I will break free from these chains of enslavement
And feel enthusiasm, no matter how small or brief
Just one time.

P-12/8/18.

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